Death has a funny way of putting things into perspective. Well, I guess it's not very funny at all but you know what I mean. The things you put off for whatever reason get re-evaluated and reorganized.
For example, if you know me at all you know I'm not the most clean person ever. I get busy and I end up not caring. Since I've been back in Washington, all I want is a clean house. Our friends cleaned it for us and I'm making sure it stays that way.
The other thing is that I am done folding Chris' clothes all the time. He likes to do laundry a lot and doesn't like to fold his clothes. Well now, he has a hamper for his clean clothes that he can deal with in his own time. If there was ever an appropriate time for the phrase "ain't nobody got time for that", this would be it.
I'm ready for my first tattoo. It will be my birthday present to myself when the big 25 rolls around in about a month. It's a secret. But I'm thinking it's going to involve this symbol and a word. Any guesses?
I'm kind of a terrible friend in that it's not easy to get to know me but I'm trying really hard not to be that way anymore. I got burned badly by the last close friend I made so I put up walls that have turned into a fortress of solitude in a way. This has been going on for about 3 years now so that's stupid. Plus, I've been having extremely vivid, super specific dreams since my Dad died relating to this problem making me think I'm ready to figure out how to be open again.
I could always just follow the advice of this video. Seems legit.
And then there's the problem of the gym. The problem being that I don't go as much as I should. The problem also being that Alaska makes me gain 5-10 pounds when I'm there. It's all Alaska's fault.
But sort of mine too. Self control is a joke until I get back to Washington and feel chubby. I'm back to the gym today though starting with a Tai Chi class. You may laugh but those people sweat their asses off. Today, i'll find out how it happens.
Slowly but surely, I'm working on all of these things and hopefully I'll start feeling better about myself and life in the process.