Do you ever get to the point of being overwhelmed when you realize the only thing left to do is say ok and carry on? If I ever got runner's high, I feel like it would be like that. You just keep going until you come on the otherside of whatever it is you're going through and things are just clear. If you got caught up in how much it hurts or how impossible it seems to keep going, you stop. You stop in the middle and all you get out of the experience is the feeling of anxiety you were trying to get through. If you keep going though...you get to the other side.
That's me today. Just saying ok and being on the otherside of everything. On the otherside of my Dad's surgery being a failure due to the fault of no one, of my choreography not flowing well with limited time to fix it, of the expenses that come with spring, of Chris being a medical mystery, of my work schedule having less hours for the next month and a half and all the everything.
Maybe it's the sun that has me optimistic but it feels more like the survival instict. To me, the function of anxiety should be to make us more productive. For those of you who are like me, you know anxiety does the opposite of that. It's the definition of counterproductive. But today, I'm going to choose to be productive. I'm going to choose to say ok and trust that through my hard work, everything will work out exactly like it should. It will all be ok. Whether I think I can or not, I'm right.
And today, I think I can.
And it's all ok.
And I will find a way or make one.
And it will all work out exactly like it should.
And today, my anxiety is productive.
And today, I'm cha-chaing instead of being a disaster.
And today, I'm cha-chaing instead of being a disaster.
And those are the choices I'm making for myself for today. Tomorrow might be different but I'll leave that for tomorrow.
ay yi yi. Same boat as you, girl. Thanks for encouraging us to be optimistic. "Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok, it's not the end."
ReplyDeleteI 100% agree....anxiety is an awful thing and with that comes negativity. Boo!
ReplyDelete<3 huggs. and yes i know this feeling all too well...
ReplyDeleteGreat quote! I hope things fall together for you sooner rather than later, and I'm glad you are still optimistic despite everything!
ReplyDeleteGreat quote - I might have to steal it use it some time. And I totally feel you girl, stress is so blah, and unproductive but sometimes you just have to shake it off. Hope you're doing well today <3
ReplyDeleteI think I needed to read this lately. Anxiety, frustration - it all has a way of making you feel like you are sitting in a puddle of mud and instead of getting up and trucking on, it's like you are stuck. Pretty much the worst feeling in the world and then it's the "would've, could've, should've" or how much you just want to take your frustration out on someone else. I know I've had a hard time shaking it lately! (Can you tell, haha!) I admire you for realizing this, sharing this and helping others get thru it as well! May we all meet up on the other side :)
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